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| howdy good peeps! GREAT, GRAND, WONDERFUL! sorry, but there is something about Billy Madison that just gets me all geared up! but anyway lets proceed!
these past weeks have been a bit hard here. now i know what u are thinking, "Mel, you work for Disney and are doing what you love!" and yes, that is true, but so many things have been happening back at home that have really taken a toll on me.
the day that i arrived in Orlando, my mom was in a car accident and her car was totalled, leaving her without a car and with some serious pain that still is hurting her to this day. then my sister sam is really hating her experience at oregon state, which kills me because i really wanted her to love her college experience. but the worst of the news came a few days ago when i got a call that my grandmother had fallen and been taken to the hospital and that our dog rose, had passed away. its just a really hard time right now. its just a lot at once. im trying to be strong and trying not to let it get to me, but everytime i get a phone call from home, its always such a sad call, and i feel so low for not being there. i hate that i wasnt home for my mother in this time. i hate, i hate, i hate it. God is testing us and me, and knowing this, it has helped and given me more peace, but its still something that im really struggling with right now. its also a burden for those who are here with me because when i deal with pain, i do it alone because i dont want to be a burden to anyone else, i dont like to be the downer. and so i feel like i have secluded myself just a bit, and i know they understand and they have been nothing but gracious about it, but i still hate to be this way.
some people dont understand just how close you can be to your pets, and some may think its silly to be so sad over losing them, but the truth is Rose was one of my greatest friends. she was such a special dog, so full of energy and spunk and most importantly, love. we pretty much grew up together, and to think the next time i go home, i wont be able to see her to her little dance she always did, really makes my heart ache.
so for my friends who i havent been in contact with recently, know that all these events have taken a toll on me and for that reason, i have just needed some time on my own to get through this. its not that i havent wanted to talk, but its for the sole reason that i havent felt like talking to anyone. but things are getting better, and God will give me peace and joy again, so life is good. So Godbless, and till next time, have a magical day!
Mel
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| ok so since some people think that i am too good to respond to them i will write a quick blog just to prove them wrong. but i would just like to say that teasing me like this is a bit irritating considering they dont call or tell me about their lives, i have to find out from other people, thats all i have to say...
anyways, since my move a few weeks ago my life has been like a rollercoaster! ive been training and working and trying to establish friendships while also trying to network and apply for advanced internships... so yeah im a bit burned at this point. im on my way to the comedy club tonight and im pretty stoked!
ok so here are some of the details- i again live at chatham square(WHOO) and live with 7 great girls! two are from Pennsylvania, two are from chicago, one from miami, one from texas and of course, two are from California! i am working at the emporium, which is so great but at the same time i am trying to still feel it out. the job itself is so much easier as far as hard labor, but the bonding with fellow employees is slower due to the fact that the work is much more independent, but its only been a week, so i am still pretty optimistic!
i have already met some great people since i have been down here and life is always good, so i feel pretty blessed. right now im really tired so im going to get some sleep before my festivities tonight so i will write back later!
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| HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! i really cant believe that another year has
flown by! this time last year i was pretty much crying at every
opportunity because so many people that were dear to me were leaving
me. and wouldnt you know it, i feel like its the same as last year. how
ironic that i am leaving for FL on January 5th, because that was the
day i left FL just one year ago. i swear, January 5th and May 13th will
go down as the worst days of year in my book!
i dont really know what to write... i really am happy to be going back,
but right now i am just so sad. i hate to put people i love through
pain. i hate to say goodbye, I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT! its the
worst thing in the world, and i have to say goodbye to three people
that mean so much more than life to me. last time it was the "goodbye,
but see you in a few months!" This time its "goodbye, and see you when
i come to visit for a few days." its really taking a toll on me.
sometimes i wish that i didnt have such an amazing family so that this
would be easy, or that i wasnt SUCH A CRYER so that i wouldnt get so
overwhelmed by this. but this is who i am, and knowing that this new
phase in my life means not being with my family as much is something
that i just dont know if i can handle. its so crazy because the first
time i left, i almost didnt go! i didnt want to leave my family, but as
soon as i got there, i knew this is where i wanted to be! then coming
home, i wanted to leave so bad and counted the days up until this
point. and after all this, i am in the exact place i was before! i just
look at this as being SO blessed. i have the best family in the world,
and they want me to follow my dreams. im just so lucky.
this will be my last blog until my arrival in FL, so Godbless, and ill write when i get to FL!
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| ok, since someone is pushing me to comment, here i go...
these past few weeks have flown by and it is crazy to think in another
two weeks, i will be in a completely different state! but moving on the
past weeks. seriously, they rocked my socks. well, the last week and a
half did. the first part of the week involved finals at school(shoot me
NOW!) but by the end of it, i was so relieved and i had Samantha and
Daniel at my side to celebrate. The Cheesecake Factory had just opened,
so Daniel and I went to dinner and then saw Rent( amazing movie, not
gonna lie in the least!). i could ramble on about what we did this past
week in detail, but im gonna keep it short- Daniel had his first
experience with sushi (mmmmmmm), we went to San Franisco, went to
Monterey, had a big Christmas at home with my mom's side, hung out with
high school friends that are home for the holidays, and last by
absolutely NOT least,...I WENT AND SAW KEITH URBAN IN CONCERT!!! im
serious, sexiest man alive hands down! Nicole Kidman is a very lucky
woman. during the concert, i swear we had a moment! wow... soooooo
anyway, life is very good right now. i bit overwhelming emotionally,
but ya know, very good. i promise i will write more later, but i have
to run, more social activites to attend to! love you all!
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| ok im such a sqeeze and you out there might get a kick outta this one! sooo my mom flew to Oregon on Friday to pick up my sis and then starting on Sunday, they were going to drive Samantha's car home. so they call us on saturday to let us know they will be home on mon. so yesterday i was home alone all day which was great because i got a chance to study for my finals. now if you know anything about Riffle women, you know that we are very emotional creatures that are a bit paranoid about things. our thing is making sure our family is safe, so naturally i thought my girls would call. soooo 8 rolls around and then 9. i waited up till midnight waiting for their phone call. i left 4 messages on each of their phones even!(even though the phones were turned off!) so i wake up this morning and still no phone call. my dad was already at work so i called to ask what i should do. he told me to wait until noon, and if they hadnt called us by then, then we would take action. now u gotta understand my mind at this point. ive got two very important finals in an hour, i have no idea where my family is at, and my dad(which is always calm as a cucumber) is nervous. so then i go into panic mode. i start to call Oregon State and CA state police and was about to put in a missing person report when i get a call- from Sam! she's like "whats up?" like nothing was wrong! then come the waterworks- "WHY DIDNT U CALL ME!!!" i barely got out through tears. so long story short, my fam is ok, and i might have overreacted, but they should have called. now im on my break at school totally frazzled from emotion and wanting to, im sorry, kick my mom and sisters ass! lol i know thats bad but u dont but me through something like that! im a fragile, emotional being gosh dangit!!! well thats enough ranting for now. until next time...
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